Panorama of San Bernardino

Tuesday, February 3, 2026

You thought it would last forever?

I always felt like the world could last forever

That nothing could end us, that it would exist

Until eternity, but I no longer feel that way

Maybe God, big G, what I call the universe

Has a tipping point where G just gives up

Where G says enough is enough and leaves us


Has G left us all alone on this big piece of dirt?

To fend for overselves, just muddling through 

Fighting the powers that are trying so damn hard

To scare us until we cry out, say uncle, and give up

Some days I want to pretend this isn't happening

Then I remember why we are here, why I'm here


We are here to raise our voices, to show the fuckers

We will not back down without a fight

Defending those that they are trying to crush 

Those under the boot, the heel on their neck 

Cutting into their breath till there's no air left

To scream help into an empty sky 


Thursday, January 8, 2026

A new year, a new way

I've been neglecting you dear blog. I am a bit obsessed with writing my recovery substack (https://lifeofjem.substack.com/p/powerlessness).

But I'm back. And it's a new year. The shih tzus are over a year old. My job is busy. Life is moving along, and I'm 54 years old and still working on self improvement. 

(Even though, the world is falling apart. The sky is not falling yet...)

This year, I am living life a new way. Sober. Peaceful. Zen. I really love where I am. My mood is good. I'm grateful. I know I have a lot. I'm hopeful that this year I will finish my novel. It's about a truck stop waitress drinking in dystopian times. 

So this is my new year. Love you all! See you soon, JEM

By the way, the second edition of Tales of an Inland Empire Girl was just released. You can get it here: https://www.pelekinesis.com/