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Friday, October 17, 2025

Tomorrow will it ever come

Tomorrow I'm seeing Morrissey. He's playing in Ontario. Social Distortion is playing with him. I'm hoping everything goes off without a hitch. Morrissey is getting older so you never know with him. 

It's the IE and I'm an IE girl. We all know this and to get to see Morrissey in my hometown is epic. Especially now that I'll be wide awake and sober. In case you don't know, I'm working on my wellness. 

Today, I went to a lunch meeting that involves music and played a Morrissey song from the Smiths. The group is all genres and we play a song and talk about it. Not everyone knew the Smiths or had heard the song. I kind of felt like Jan Brady. Like no one liked me. But then I thought, well maybe I'm introducing someone to music they've never heard. 

My need for approval persists. My perfectionist tendencies are real. My insecurities manifesting even sober, and maybe that's why I drank. Because I'm not as confident as I pretend. If you want to read about my recovery journey check out my substack. 

https://lifeofjem.substack.com/?utm_campaign=pub&utm_medium=web

And I'll just keep humming along. Until tomorrow when I'll be singing along to every song. 

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